A Happy Place

Do you guys have a happy place in your life ?

I mean a place where you can run away to, where you will be happy.  I am sure I had one.
But I don't remember it now.

I was very sad. Sad about lot of things. I wanted to express this to someone. But I couldn't. It had repercussions. So the logical thing was to shut up and let the time pass by.

But then you cannot be silent forever. It suffocates you after some time. Then you think about the happy place. The place where you will be happy because that is the happiest place you have been to.

So many places came by when I tried to go there. Like those pictures that are rotated to get a feel of motion, they zipped passed my vision. It was like there was no happy place for me. Atleast not a true one.

I am quite disappointed about the fact that even after all these years I didn't have a happy place where I could take a recluse. 

Or perhaps, I didn't need one before.

I never wanted to run away there. I never had done that before. Until now.

May be I need to have a happy place. A place where I will be a bystander, watching what is happening and being happy about it.